arrrrrrghhhhh

so i got up to do my laundry

and when i put my dollar in it said 'error' and then it was all fucked up and i ended up paying double the amount of money than i'd normally do

then if that wasn't bad enough

i come down to find this fucking lady take out my laundry out of the machine i was like right on time fuck what the hell

and she was like 'excuse me is any of these urs' i was like 'that fucking one u're taking out is mine' (okay i didn't say the word fucking to her)

in anycase

bad morning



my friend is coming to pick up her bags

i need to go see my prof today



things i just dont wanna do


i just wanna sleeep =___=

So my parents had this huge fight and plans just.. fucked up :(... I really wish I could just stay in Toronto and never come back to Edmonton.. maybe i'll do that... hmm .. yeah so I'm not going to New york anymore.. this sucks so much but at least I'm still gonna see you :D:D:D!! I really wanted to see MoMa and Soho and go shopping.. but I guess.. it's kind of like Toronto.. shopping..? :( .. poo.... oh well .. I guess we can always take a trip down there together one day... :(((

I wanna run away from home!!!

:(((

finally!!!
less than one month until you come : D

YAY

WOOOOOOO. SOOOO IGNORE THE POST BELOW since I already talked to you on msn about the plans.

SCHEDULE:

Edmonton, Edmonton Int'l (YEG)
Wed 05-Aug 2009
08:00
Toronto, Pearson Int'l (YYZ)
Wed 05-Aug 2009
13:39 - Terminal 1


Date right now? May fucking 14! Oh man.

I saved 700$ USD for this trip hahaha, mind you it's only May so there will be a lot more cash rolling in before August! See!!! I'm definitely ready to visit. The thing is that I really REALLY want to go down to New York. A friend is going to be there (I studied with her in South America,) and I definitely want to take this chance to visit her. So do you know what the methods are of travelling down there? Is it a bus? Train? I have to see New York man... come with me :( COME WITH ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! COMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!! I'll force my parents to pay for hotel LMFAO. I'm cruel.

Anyways... yeah..:( *hughug* parents can be a pain in the ass at times... but hey they decided to pop us into the world.. LOL wonder how it feels to have created kids who like to draw drowning people or morbidity :P Awww I CANT WAIT TO SEE YOUR NEW PLACE!!!! I really want to move to Toronto so bady.. you have no idea.. like now.. I just want to leave this stupid town. I wish it was just as easy to do it but.. it's hard if there is no way that I can pay for school without my parents :(.
As for Elisha? Your neighbour. I WANT TO MEET HER omg, then I can bitch to her about how awful my school was and she should come down and exterminate all of the stupid bastards in my campus hahaha... *evil*

Yeah sorry I missed your call or if I'm super duper boring on MSN.. I'm either way passed boredom and my IQ has dropped and I can't carry a normal conversation.. or that I'm asleep TT... <3 Hope all is going well for you.
MUCH LOVES!!!

boutiques? there is a lot on the way to my apartment. the neighbourhood is like 20 mins walk from the campus, my friends were all like OMG how do u commute u need a metro pass (like the U-pass, but it's paid by month and it's like $100+) cuz u know they all live pretty close to campus i guess i dunno =___=

in either case, yeah it's quiet neighbourhood. i met a neighbour this morning. her name is elicia? or elisha however u spell it i guess :P and she has two puppies, mona and lucy... > 3< she's a prof at niagara, she said. art and design. she wants to research in how the designs can be improved to protect the environment.

i'll take pictures of my neighbourhood :D and post it

or...

u should just come see it. hahaha.

as for studying what u don't really want to...
i've always wanted to study art XDDDD and do sculpting. but my parents never let me, neither. they were all like pushy about me studying science and getting into a med school. i never tell anyone about this. i'm always like, my parents? oh they're pretty cool u know whatever. lol

but yeah. now they know that i'm not the med-school material, but whenever i talk to my dad on the phone, and when he's drunk... oh man. =___= so i ran away :3 hahahaa

so i know where u're coming from *hugs* don't worry.

i mean i wonder why sometimes (if not all the time) parents do not know where we stand u know. i mean, they probably went through this as well, right? so why can't they be more understanding??

i was trying to draw with conte, on the wall yesterday and failed miserably.

LOL.

i think i'll just stick to pencils. : P

So glad you are getting a job at Second Cup.. I finally am getting more 'clients'. And yeah... I know how you feel.. lack of motivation and stuff TT.
So yesterday I was pretty down...thought I would get in but hey...screw Macewan... I'll prove them wrong and they'll regret not accepting me in hahaha... well they never really appreciated my morbid sense of imagination anyways. Psh.
I'm working on a drawing for you hehe <3.. It's going to take a while since that stupid email from macewan made me really pissed off.. so my inspiration kind of disintegrated... I mean I do want to get in .. well now I feel I wanted to get into that major because my father wants me to stick to film now.. something I don't enjoy nor do I ever want to do... I'm a mess right now because I'm sensitive to these sort of things...like he doesn't understand that I'm so passionate about art.. that it's me. Without it, I'm nothing you know? But enough of that! I HAD A REALLY WEIRD DREAM. Okay you know Andy Warhol? well I dream't I was in a fine arts class and this lady came in and said Andy Warhol wanted to recruit 12 artists and they chose me! LOL.

OH I have to take a photoshoot in Whyte Ave hotel of a naked girl LOL.. I'll be the photographer! It's not exactly sexual, more like artistic nude? So... I'm looking forward to that. It's still gloomy and rainy here, fits my mood so I don't really mind it...though I am craving some humid weather... Oh god I heard Queens street is great? Please take me to all the awesome fashion boutiques! I can't wait... TT!

I wish it was August...

Buuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu


Whats up with you??

T__T

i still can't believe it!!!! T___T

my address is 291 avenue rd. toronto. and u already have my number.

i am still furniture less!!! but that's alright. i think i'm gonna browse craigslist for more bargains : P

the lady at second cup said she'll call me on sunday. which is tomorroW! O:
and then school starts... =___= eeeeeek

three of my friends saw my dolls and the head that i'm working on, and they were like wow... u really have a unique hobby. lol. in either case, i really should finish my friend's head and ship it off... but i'm like... =___= aaaack so not motivated. u know??/ this must be how u feel about some of the commissions >:( haha

in anycase. let me know everything. haha.

FUCK MY LIFE! Do I have to sensor this blog Alice? LOL.. if not then I will repeat FUCK MY LIFE!!!!

i never knew moving in was so much work!~!!!! T___T
but i think i may get a job at second cup. i just handed in my resume and the manager said we should have a quick interview tomorrow morning. i hope she hires me : )
man i'm so hungry now gonna go eat lunch soon yay.
but there is only bananas and cereal in my house. lol. which i'm okay w/ but a friend has no place to go he said and i said okay you can stay over in my no furniture room... haha. he's still sleeping i think i left him there : P

anna why did u delete ur other blog. where are u//

i haven't eaten much since monday. just didn't really feel like it... :/ i've lost appetite. hope i get it back at when i'm out today/ hmm.

oh well.